||[Nov. 9th, 2004|06:11 pm]
catapulted into what can't be
it has been awhile. sydney this is for you, btw. also i guess its for me. so things are going really well right now, because i have been living at camp more than i have been living at home which is the way i like it. this weekend, i had a one on one which is cool because i got to know him really well. basically he was nine years old and he was bi-polar with Adhd, OCd, tourette's, and sensory integrity issues. basically he was super moody and had some behaviors where you just kind of had to run away. but we played soccer and baseball and "hunt the buffalo" a lot, which was tight i felt like a little kid again. this one time, we were kicking the soccer ball instead of going to dinner and he hit his head, and started freaking out and i am freaking out inside because i am so scared he will have his biggest behavior yet, but he lets me kiss his head which is big for him because he doesn't like touch, so i was happy. but i got maybe seven hours of sleep because i was on night duty friday night and this little seven year old named trevor wouldnt sleep without someone sleeping with him, so i had to cram between the rails with him which was cute for maybe ten minutes until i realized how uncomfortable i was. but bobby allen was in my lodge, who is my favorite little boy in the history of little boys. he was in a bad mood this whole weekend, and since he has downs he is super stubborn. except on sunday he started talking again, like nonstop, and he never refused to give me a kiss so it was okay. also, kinsey was there and it was the tightest thing ever, she had a new dog named chloe who she kept on a leash and the thing looked so real, geez. there was the most beautiful six year old with autism and cerebral palsy, he was amazing. and the usual crowd was there as well: tony, tom, debbie, sarah, diana, carlton, and rod. and me and annabelle had quality time with carlton and tony on saturday. and rod and i got really close and he is so funny, we had this war with down feathers, and they were stuck all over him it was hilarious. tony was reading with bobby one day at campfire and it was so precious. the food was gross and AB and i both got sick, yuck, and stayed home yesterday. i met the coolest guy ever named brandon, he was so laid back and awesome. arazeli was back this weekend and it made me so happy because i love her. |
i missed sinead's party, which i am sad about i heard it was fun. and i missed bruno's, but i dont really care i heard it wasnt that great. and i missed the fashion show, which i heard was amazing and i am sad i wasnt there.
but in the grand scheme of things, i love camp so much i would miss a whole lot for it. at our meeting tamisha read us a letter from a parent of a first time camper which said that while their child was at camp, they went out to dinner together for the first time in eleven years. thats some strength, compassion, and love right there.
none of the drosche's were there this weekend so i was sad, because i love it when jared tries to say my name but cant, so he says "jddeedshica" or something along those lines. and robbie goes "What are we GOnna DO? What are we goooona do?". but laura's problem campers brother was a JC in my lodge, he was cool i guess but his brother is crazy.
camp is the most amazing and important thing i have done with my life so far. carlton and annabelle and tony and i were having this really deep conversation in the pitch black main lodge at 4 in the morning on saturday night, and so many things just got pieced together for me. carlton is this great guy, with his life very together, holding down an awesome job and driving a super nice black beamer, and yet he still devotes every weekend to this cause, even though his girlfriend nicole, who introduced him to it, doesn't come with him anymore. the counselors at camp come from so many different backgrounds and random situations, and yet there is this unbreakable bond between all of us that no one mentions, but it is forever there. i feel so incredible when im around these incredible people. its like good-vibe central. everyone is compassionate, understanding, open, loving, caring, amazing people who i would never be friends with or know without this small little haven in cupertino i call my second, almost first, home.
so i took a break to eat dinner and now i'm done with my shpiel.
except that can i just say that it was hilarious when this camper named nolan took the shower head and accidently sprayed all the counselors before we could close the curtain. ohh man that was so funny.
anyway. homework calls.